• Inspiration.

    Last night I watched a news program intending to explain the circumstances leading to the terrorist attacks of September 2001. As I watched the program I learned several things, but more importantly – I was inspired. I was inspired by possibilities. I was inspired by the seemingly credible hope that better things may be possible. I was grateful for this, but I was also jealous. Here was someone with a gift, a real gift. He has been blessed with the ability to teach and to inspire. It’s not so much that he can make some difference in the world, but that he can make a difference in individual’s lives. I do believe that everyone can make a difference, even me. However, his gift is not mine. No matter how much I want to enrich the lives of others, I won’t have the same success. It’s silly, it’s futile, and it’s not productive, but I feel a little smaller as a result.


  • Stuck.

    You notice someone doing something that you think may be unethical. You don’t know the person committing the act very well, but you have no relationship whatsoever to the person who will be adversely effected from this act. Muddying the waters, it appears that this act – while unethical – will result in just ends (in the grand scheme of things). The person committing the act is someone you have to interact with on a regular basis, and you’ve enjoyed working with them, but you are afraid that revealing the act could get the individual in some trouble – or worse.

    So what do you do?

    You could pull the person aside and confront them. That way you may find out if it was intentional deception or just a mistake. You may not find out either way, but things may work out anyway. It turns out the case worked out in spite of our confrontation, in spite of the truth. However, I’m still not sure how much I can trust this individual. At least I can live with myself.


  • Going to the middle east.

    In 1991 I was a college student. My girlfriend at the time was worried about a possible draft, but I was not. There was a war brewing, but I was shamefully carefree. Watching the footage on TV it all seemed so far away, almost abstract. I had no emotional attachment to what I was seeing.

    Last week was different, but why?

    I am twelve years older. I am no longer a college student, and I work for a living. I have a daughter. All of these things change your life, but do they change the person you are? Now the images I see have some meaning, but what did the trick? Is it the different circumstances under which hostilities have begun? Have my circumstances changed my perspective? Is it some combination of the two; or, is it something else entirely? Either way, I can’t say I’m carefree this time around.