Wellbeing

He laughed

Do want to hear something funny? Who doesn’t, that’s what I wanna know? It’s not human. It’s un-frigging-American! But enough already. It seems I may have heart disease. Did you bust your gut? Maybe blow a few rivets? You gotta hand it to my body. It’s a regular… well… some comedian who’s really funny. There are five-year-olds who deal with worse…
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Family and Friends

A valentine

I have an anonymous valentine. It’s not something I received from someone else. It’s something I have for someone else, in the form of this post. Pretty lame, right? No, this is not a sign of trouble in my marriage. It’s the opposite, in a way. Someone’s relationship – a big one – broke up this weekend. I feel bad, but I don’t know how to express it.
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Wellbeing

One year

On this day, one year ago, I learned my leukemia was not in remission anymore. The disease I think about every day anyway, was back on active duty. But you know what? The numbers from blood tests the docs look at to determine when it’s time to start chemotherapy haven’t changed since then. The disease remains better than the cure, so I continue to wait. My red blood cell count, along…
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Wellbeing

Piles of life

Like many of my posts, I wrote the lion’s share of this one some time ago. I was inspired to polish and post it by a friend’s recent, much better post. Let me tell you a little something you may not know about sinusitis. I do not like sinusitis. I do not like it with a nose. I do not like it when it blows. I do not like it in my head. I do not like it lying in a bed. It’s been…
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Wellbeing

Don't mess with time

The clock is cruel. 3:41 a.m. Apparently it’s never heard of the saying, “if you don’t have anything nice to say don’t say anything at all.” I am awake, craving a protein bar of all things. However, just when I think I’m too alert to sleep, I look at the screen and find three pages of the letter n. Why n? It’s not even on the home row of keys. I fear the…
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Wellbeing

Success or failure?

It may seem I’ve been gone for a while, but it’s not true. I’ve been here and there. I’ve just been invisible for a while. You would think I was agonizing over a feature article for the newspaper. I have two or three posts in the queue (not counting countless, abandoned ones) that are “mostly done” but I can’t bring myself to finish/post. You’ve…
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Family and Friends

Back seat passenger

You’ll be happy to know I’m a passive passenger (or maybe you won’t care). It’s an irrefutable fact. I am every driver’s dream. I do not speak unless spoken to. I am blessed with innate, directional savvy, but I only share it upon request. Most importantly, I am willing to travel in the back seat. Not only am I willing, it was my idea. Increasingly, our thirteen year…
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Family and Friends

I've got Santa on my mind

First of all I want to say, with all the humility and grace I can muster, we are WAY cooler than you are. We got a box filled with A TON of chocolate from Germany today. – Insert insane jealousy here – Sorry, I had to get that out of my system. I’ve got the mother of all sugar highs going. The kids are only sleeping because they rocketed right past sugar high to sugar coma. The…
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Wellbeing

Feeling safe until I don't

Work is a safe zone. It’s one of the few places I can speak freely. It’s one of the few places I feel competent, where I can act and speak with confidence. But it’s fragile state. It’s not just the people I work with, though they are great (my second family). It’s the setting. It’s the subject matter of most discussions, or the ones most likely to come up. It…
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