Wellbeing

Breakable

I wasn’t aware of this until recently, but my children treat me like I’m old and frail – like my bones are made of glass and my internals pop like a soap bubble. I don’t remember doing this with my father, but then this may say more about me than my son. My dad always seemed fairly rugged. Mind you – and I think he’d admit this himself – he’s not what you’d call a…
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Wellbeing

Sitting in the dark

A month or so ago, I posted a picture to Facebook with the caption: “in over my head.” I think it sounded like I was lost, or any number of things other than what I intended, without the context of the pictures I posted before (which I suspect slipped past many folks). We were on a camping trip, visiting a place that goes much of the way back to me and Cheryl’s childhood. The…
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Kitchen Sink

Thinking thoughts while tired

Where do I begin? Life is a kick in the ass. Sometimes it’s a kick you need or in hindsight, maybe even wanted. Other times it’s just a fucking kick. Above all, life is exactly what your parents tell you it is: not fair. Some of us are kicked down, hard and often. Some of us get the kick we need, over and over, and never get the message. Some are fortunate not to need a kick of any…
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Current Events

The Facebook reply that wasn't

Allow me to introduce myself. I’m the mostly absent author of this site. The name’s John, but my friends call me John. I have not said much about the looming election, mostly for mental health reasons. That’s not meant to be a joke. I’ve started a few dozen posts – I think. I’ve lost track. I’ve always given up less than a few sentences in, already emotionally…
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Kitchen Sink

Notes from the surgi-center

Methinks the invention of the outpatient surgery center is the best thing to happen to Western Civ since artificial flavoring. I can’t substantiate this claim. I can’t explain myself. I didn’t give it any more thought than it took to move my fingers across the keyboard. That’s right. I’m in random thoughts mode. How is this any different than the other 23 hours of the…
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Wellbeing

CRAP!

Sorry for the potty mouth, but I just realized my last few updates from yesterday somehow didn’t make it online. I didn’t mean to leave you hanging – like it seems I did – and I feel bad. I did most of this from my MacBook (trusty MarsEdit), but I switched to the WordPress app on my phone after I left the lobby/waiting room. Everything I did on my phone somehow didn’t make it.
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Wellbeing

Going home

Cheryl is going home. Without going into too many details, the doctor had to cut more, the surgery took longer, and there’s more pain than expected. That said, this procedure was purely cosmetic (to cover the larger than expected hole in her head), so the prognosis is excellent, and she’ll have hair over all of the spots on her head where you’re supposed to have hair. Best of all…
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Wellbeing

Live-Blogging Cheryl's Surgery

The promised update 2:06 p.m. It’s been a long day yet it seems it’s only a little more than half finished. Cheryl’s sleeping for the moment and I’d really like to do the same. I’m ready to call it a day. I’ll post something brief tomorrow to let you know how she’s doing.   1:45 p.m. (recovery) The bandages are striking. I’d like to post pictures but Cheryl’s likely reply (if I…
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Family and Friends

Shared experience

As we were leaving the stadium last night, bouncing along with the jubilant chants of: It’s GREAT to BE a Florida GATOR, I bent over and said into Adam’s ear, “you could go to a hundred more games and not see another one like this one.” He didn’t hear me. I couldn’t hear myself. “WHAT?” “I SAID,” now yelling into his ear, “YOU COULD…
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